at the end of the day,
we are still very much alive.

our ties that bind
stretch weightless

we daze
suspended in transit

the stranger sun grins
bright

fight
eyes-closed closed-eyed, fight

promise me
the morphine end

"eventually the birds must land
EVENTUALLY THE BIRDS MUST LAND!"

this i heard today,
and i laughed hard, so-hard hard,
propelling a flock of worries to the sky
as birds drifted home every minute.

"He never let his children forget that there had been no one to help him as he helped them, so that no matter how well Sudha did, she felt that her good fortune had been handed to her, not earned."

- excerpt, Only Goodness, Jhumpa Lahiri

If I had to do a 20 word summary of tonight, it would be:

A Night of Microbiology, Amelie, and Boon Tong Kee
Results in An Evening of Driving and a Serendipitous Turn of Events.

Life... hilarious! and beautiful, and scary, and wild, and mindblowing.
and now back into the breeze

:)

there is a sea deep within,
it is getting harder to ride out the storms,
and i am a little scared.

it is unnatural,
but life is fair,
mathematically cold,
always fair.

it just occurred to me that i never actually mentioned outright what i am doing now,
which is medical school.
are you surprised? sometimes i am.
how is medical school and what is it like?
it is like yersinia pestis. you hang on tight and hope to survive... with craig kelly as your copilot

i think,
my insecurities have less to do with academic work-related stresses per se,
and more to do with my perceived effectiveness as a future doctor.
but who knows what's in this head of mine;

i need to get back in the swing of things,
i.e. in the swing of optimism,
because frankly, i am struggling as a conquered pessimist.
i need to start tackling my rollercoasters with
salt and sunshine and laughter,
all as per normal,
oyster worlds, worlds of oysters.

♥

i want to be in boston right now to watch PASSION PIT at the middle east tomorrow,
soooooooooooooo badly. SOOOOO BADLY!!!!!!

but life has all these other narcoleptic plans for me tonight,
on the other side of the earth... AHHHHHHH

psychiatry is kind of rocking my world,
but michael angelakos is pure sex, passion and oomph.
the two just can't compare. xx

i miss giving a fuck about something,
anything

well hello, i am back! 2009, here we go.